It has been long. It has been long since I last hung out
with Gray. I miss his voice. His jokes. His hugs. His touch. I miss everything
about him. I want to feel his warmth enveloping my frame. All I had was his
jacket, still stained with his cologne. I loved the smell of it. But it was not
enough. I really wanted to be with him. I tried to call him once and asked if
he wanted to hang out. But he said he couldn’t because he was busy with Suyeon.
Suyeon this. Suyeon that. What was I before she came into
his life? Am I his toy where he can just shove to one corner when he is bored
playing with it? After all those times and memories shared with him, he just
left me hanging here. I really like him. I love him. It would be very hard to
let go of these feelings that I have for him. After that one phone call, I just
kept avoiding him. I guess this is just one of the ways for me to forget him.
It was another school day. I was walking down the hallway in
school after my last class. Nothing has been well for me so the last thing I
ever wanted was to face Gray. I jinxed it. I saw Gray and he saw me as well. I
made a quick beeline towards the exit of the school. Once I was out of school,
I took a deep breath before I continued making my way to my next destination.
But I was too late. I felt his hand grabbed onto my wrist, preventing me from
walking any further. His touch made my skin tingle in excitement. I have been
longing to feel his touch. My heart beat too fast that it kept ringing in my
ears. I turned around to face him but I kept looking elsewhere.
“Why are you avoiding me?” he questioned me with his
concerned eyes.
I just shrugged my shoulders and avoided eye contact. I
could sense how pissed he was feeling at that moment. He grabbed onto my
shoulders and looked into my eyes, though I kept looking away.
“Yah. Can you stop it? Why are you avoiding me?” he asked
again as he tightened his grip on my shoulders.
“Nothing. I just… I need to go. I’m meeting someone,”
“Who? Where?”
“Why do you care? You’re not my boyfriend,”
“Just tell me!”
“Fine! I’m heading to the pizza parlour near my place with
Chanyeol,”
“Your neighbour? Is this some kind of date?”
“It might be. Whatever. If you don’t mind, I need to go,” I
pushed his hands away and rushed over to the pizza parlour.
He just stood there in shock, watching me walking away from
him.
I feel so bad for telling him that my meeting with Chanyeol
might be a date. I couldn’t think of what else to say. My meeting with Chanyeol
is actually a tutoring session. He’s a really good tutor and pretty good
looking as well. He had chocolate brown hair, but it is usually covered by his
snapback. He is very tall as well. He could even pass off as a model due to his
good looks and model-like height. He tends to go for a casual sporty look like today
for example; he wore a muscle tank with jeans and white Nike shoes. He was
wearing a grey hoodie but he gave it to me because he noticed that I was pretty
cold. He calls himself an elf because his ears stick out but I find them cute.
His eyes seem to always twinkle whenever we share eye contact. But when we do
share eye contact, he’ll look away and the blush on his cheeks will be even
more obvious.
Without me knowing, Gray was spying on me. He sat at the
very corner of the parlour and watched my every single move.
“Oh, you have an eyelash on your cheek. Let me help you,”
Chanyeol said as he stretched his long fingers to remove the eyelash.
That was when Gray appeared.
“Oh ____, Chanyeol! You guys are here too,” He stood there
and looked at the both of us.
Chanyeol smiled to him. I quickly dragged him to another
corner.
“What’s up? Oh wait let me get that off your cheek,” he
offered.
He held onto my face carefully and grazed his thumb over my
cheek to get the eyelash away. I could
feel my cheeks becoming hot and blushing. Before I become all jelloid, I
quickly changed the topic.
“Why are you here? Are you spying on me?” I asked as I
glared at him.
“No! I was… Fine, I was,”
“Why are you doing this? You’re not my boyfriend, why do you
care so much?”
“I was just looking out for you,”
“Yeah right! Whatever, just go and have fun with Suyeon okay?”
I turned away and made my way back to the table.
“Wait! Why… Why him?”
“He’s cute. And at least, he doesn’t leave people hanging
and waiting for nothing,” I left him standing there, watching me walking away
once again.
I swear I felt so guilty. I didn’t mean it to be that way. I
just wanted him to know how lonely I have been ever since that day.
After another hour of tutoring, Chanyeol and I left the
parlour. He insisted on walking to my place before he head to his. We stopped
outside of my door.
“Thanks for today Chanyeol,” I thanked him as I returned his
jacket to him.
“No problem. Good night,” he blinked cutely to me.
He then came closer to me, attempting to kiss me. But I
quickly turned away. He moved away slowly and bit his bottom lip.
“Sorry…” he apologised.
“It’s okay. Erm… My mum, she might see us. No one wants a
long ass lecture from her,”
“Right, I forgot. ____ wait, do you want to go out some
time? Well not for tutoring sessions,”
“Oh. I’m sorry Chanyeol. I am kind of… It’s complicated
right now,”
“It’s okay. I get it. Good night. See you around,”
“Chanyeol! I really am sorry,” I apologised once more before
he makes his way to his place.
I kept on thinking all night long. I thought about why I
rejected Chanyeol’s offer. If I really wanted to move on and forget about Gray,
I should have said yes and go on real dates with him. But my heart, it kept
telling me to just stay on with Gray. Time kept passing. It was 2:21 am and it
was raining heavily. I sat by the window, still disturbed by these thoughts. I suddenly
spotted a familiar figure, standing by the pavement of my place. My phone rang
and vibrated vigorously.
“Hello? ____? Can you come out?” his voice sounded urgent.
“What do you want? It’s 2 am and raining badly outside,”
“I want to talk to you,”
“Can’t you tell me over the phone?”
“Just come out now! It’s freaking cold out here,”
“Fine fine, I’m coming out now. It better be worth it,” I
hung up.
I put on my pullover, grabbed an
umbrella and rushed out. When I opened the door, I saw that man. He stood tall,
arms folded with his clothes stuck to his body that it showed off his figure. I
rushed to him and shared the umbrella with him. When I got closer, his body
reeked of alcohol. He must have been drinking.
“Were you drinking before you
came? I can smell it. Can you please stop drinking?” I told him.
“You do care! Anyway, I came by
because I wanted to apologise for today,”
“Oh…”
“And also for how I have been
acting around you these few weeks. Suyeon and I just started as friends then
she cling onto me. I guess her presence blinded me and also how lonely you have
been. I’m sorry,” he opened his arms and wrapped them around me.
“I’m sorry too. I didn’t mean to
sound so angry to you the whole day. I miss being in your arms like this, Gray.
Can we stay like this forever?” I rested my head on his chest, listening to his
heartbeats. Even though he was drench due to the rain, I still felt his warmth
on my skin.
“We can if you let me be by your
side forever,”
“My heart is always open for you
and for you only,”
“Be mine then,” he said.
He held onto my chin and pressed
his lips onto mine. It was the best feeling you could ever imagined. I am just
glad that I did not give up on him and that he did not give up on me.
hehehehehe another continuation of my dream! yay for chanyeol for entering the dream but i rejected him :( anyways, hope you guys enjoyed it! :)
