Why do I feel like I don't deserve all of this?

The things I get. The opportunities. The friends I make.

I am just letting everything come to me. The effort being put in by them is so incomparable to the effort that I am putting in. They are trying so hard. Here I am, thinking that I tried so hard and eventually, giving up and just hoping for the best in whatever the outcome is. Why am I not the one searching for all of this? Why am I just letting everything come to me? Why?

I don't think I deserve all of this. I just don't.